Friday, March 26, 2010

Sickness

Has made this officially my worst break ever. It started a couple days before break started; I woke up on Wednesday morning feeling a bit woozy, with that shit-i'm-gonna-be-sick feeling. I was tired for most of that day, and the night following was pretty bad too. I had a horrible stomachache, and when I went to relieve myself I not only failed but collapsed on the floor, unable to move while just sweating for 10 minutes or so.

The next couple days (I was still at Cal) kinda just stayed the same. During the day I felt a bit fatigued; at night, sleeping was a nightmare, as I woke up every hour needing to go to the bathroom but also needing water. Also, both my head and body were aching like hell.

I was finally able to come home on Friday, but it actually just got worse from there. I stopped getting fevers and chills, but now the cough took over. I don't ever remember coughs being this bad. Once I start, I go on until I feel my lungs give out, or I get the feeling I want to puke. I sometimes even have trouble breathing properly.

Initially, my coughs were dry but hacking--as of now, it feels that my respiratory tubes / lungs have been inflamed, and there is mucus. It gets especially bad at night; I just start coughing a lot more, and they don't stop. I haven't been able to sleep lying down, so I've moved to sleeping by sitting on the couch outside. That's also really annoying, that I can't even sleep on my own bed without dying.

I've been lacking appetite this whole week as well. For lunch and dinner, I have had to force myself to eat what little rice I can. It's as if this illness is purposely preventing me from getting sufficient rest and nutrition to get better.

The only thing I can do is drink fluids. And I've been drinking so much water--I always have my cup with me. I've been taking medication too, though I'm not seeing any effects. My doctor even prescribed me a couple of inhalers to ease the breathing a bit.

Otherwise, I have managed to get some work done. I regret that this break is almost over, and yet I did not see a single person this whole week. I am also afraid of what will happen if I don't get any better before Monday. If I don't, my life will become that much more of a living hell.

UPDATE: I went to my doctor again today. He mentioned the possibility of mono and prescribed me some even stronger medicine. If I don't get better within a week, I'm to go back for blood tests and a lung scan. Seriously people, I really hope I don't have mono. I can already see my GPA spiraling downward.